Angel of mine

Yesterday I saw the top surface of a lake appear as if it were strewn with millions of diamonds as sun shone and embraced it ever so gracefully. The sight moved me to tears. I attributed it, at first, to the glare due to the double glass interface but soon accepted the real reason.

The perfection of the scene reminded me of you.. my angel..

I can't help but acknowledge the presence of a divine plan at work. The last time we met, you were 'perfection personified'.. never saw you after you became unwell.. two epochs when the going really gets tough - your birthday and now your approaching first death anniversary - both coincide with the penultimate day of my contact session here in Kolkata..

How would I have survived those two days had it not been for the never-ending classes, tests and assignments is a question I prefer not even attempting to answer..

I believe all homo sapiens have layers of personality which is only sequentially and gradually revealed to other members of the species. My layers have remained hidden for majority of my lifetime and what one sees is just a concretised persona. No wonder Romain Rolland believes that a great 'introvert' will know at the same time how to be a great 'extrovert'. I often refer to the paradox (of my being all gamely on the outside) as 'the face bears a smile while the heart cries out in vain..'

I see the world as a sham.. laugh at the futility of all life's hollow concerns.. and wonder with each passing moment - WHAT IS LIFE ALL ABOUT...??