More Than A Feeling
So this is what the culmination of a dream feels like eh.. gosh I DON'T FEEL A THING! I guess too many different emotions are cancelling each other out.
I thank God for blessing me with all the lovely people in my life who since day one have been oh so supportive and their unwavering faith in my ability to succeed in what one of my friends described as "the toughest exam one can think of clearing in India" has been a real motivation indeed.
The day before the 'D-DAY', I actually sat down to count my blessings, literally. I chalked down all the amazing things my family and friends have said to me over the years ranging from my soul mate telling her friends (here and abroad) that "my best friend is an IAS officer" (this mind you when I was still preparing!) to my youngest bro, who while trying to put two and two together summed up the facts of me being a mechanical engineer aspiring to become a DC or something by saying, "So, dids, you'll be going to villages and repairing hand pumps!"
Moreso now than ever before, the wishes come pouring in from all directions and it is the jubiliation and excitement I see on the faces of people that makes me FEEL something (read human again).
Can't help wondering what you might have said M but I'm sure you're looking down at me right this moment and..
I am also thinking about you Baji (my paternal grandfather).
Of all the wonderful things said and done, what my Baji's best friend ( a renowned literati) said to my dad when he called him up to break the grand news has made a room in my heart FOREVER: "... the younger one, I remember she had a spark..." It's amazing how vividly I remember the meeting referred to here by him. I was all but 11 years old or so when he visited us last in Delhi. I still remember that he had made me sit on the sofa and asked me to pronounce the words spelt out by him or name the things pointed out by him. Oh God, I can't believe I can still recall the words: oven, refrigerator, towel, government..
More than feeling proud of myself for accomplishing a long cherished ambition, the fact that I have managed to make my family and friends PROUD is the real icing on the cake.
Thank You God for this huge mercy.
I thank God for blessing me with all the lovely people in my life who since day one have been oh so supportive and their unwavering faith in my ability to succeed in what one of my friends described as "the toughest exam one can think of clearing in India" has been a real motivation indeed.
The day before the 'D-DAY', I actually sat down to count my blessings, literally. I chalked down all the amazing things my family and friends have said to me over the years ranging from my soul mate telling her friends (here and abroad) that "my best friend is an IAS officer" (this mind you when I was still preparing!) to my youngest bro, who while trying to put two and two together summed up the facts of me being a mechanical engineer aspiring to become a DC or something by saying, "So, dids, you'll be going to villages and repairing hand pumps!"
Moreso now than ever before, the wishes come pouring in from all directions and it is the jubiliation and excitement I see on the faces of people that makes me FEEL something (read human again).
Can't help wondering what you might have said M but I'm sure you're looking down at me right this moment and..
I am also thinking about you Baji (my paternal grandfather).
Of all the wonderful things said and done, what my Baji's best friend ( a renowned literati) said to my dad when he called him up to break the grand news has made a room in my heart FOREVER: "... the younger one, I remember she had a spark..." It's amazing how vividly I remember the meeting referred to here by him. I was all but 11 years old or so when he visited us last in Delhi. I still remember that he had made me sit on the sofa and asked me to pronounce the words spelt out by him or name the things pointed out by him. Oh God, I can't believe I can still recall the words: oven, refrigerator, towel, government..
More than feeling proud of myself for accomplishing a long cherished ambition, the fact that I have managed to make my family and friends PROUD is the real icing on the cake.
Thank You God for this huge mercy.
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